March 11, 2012
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St. Croix
So I had this dream yesterday morning/afternoon.
I was in a basement and chatting with someone whom at one point I was mildly interested in. My mom was there too. He goes to shower and his phone rings. Out of curiosity I look at the caller ID and it says St. Croix... I don't think it was spelled like that but dream scape is funky like that.
I was also working with clay or something malleable while I was waiting.
I wish I could remember other details but alas I cannot at this point.
Reminds me of a time when I came across something about Seychelles and investigated that too. Makes me wonder if I should be figuring out how to get to the islands.
The day before I had a dream about Matt... normal activities of daily living type of dream he was going to work, gave him a kiss goodbye...
Today was watching tv and kept trying to cry.... lots of different thoughts but mostly associated with Kevin and my inability to stop taking a rose colored view of the situation. I shouldn't say inability as it gets easier when I tell myself he is just an insecure jerk. Seems to be the only way to make myself let go.
On a brighter note I have two classes left and I'll have my bachelors. Employee Motivation and my capstone class. I'll be done with school in May. I am excited about that. Scared about the changes that it will bring.
If I really set myself to finding a job that pays my worth; I foresee having to move. Just nervous about that as I have always lived in the same area. Really it is more about moving on my own.
I just don't know. Trying not to put too much pressure on myself and just stay focused on completing school. We'll see what opportunities arise then.
