October 4, 2012

  • They Killed Her.

     

     

    The understanding that I have of logic and physics tells me that when the person who hit my dog this evening in a residential area driving too fast was probably very painful for Abby and I can only hope that she did not suffer.

    I am pissed off.  I am hurt and I want to lash out.  I want to scream.  I want to stop crying.  I want to punch someone.  I want to know that they understand that they killed her.  I want to know that they took an aspect of my life away from me.  An aspect that I loved.  I loved that she was so excited to see me everyday even if it had only been a few minutes since last seeing me.  I loved that she bit at the back of my heels behind me and was never far behind.  I loved that she slept next to me until she was too hot.  I loved that I was her human.  How can anyone not appreciate the unconditional love of their pet? 

    I can still hear the cars driving 50 - 60 -75 in a 35 mph zone! Why are/were you driving too fast?  Why?  Why does your 'problem" trump my/our dogs/pets/children safety?  What if she had been a child in the road?  Then I would have the right to prosecute for a hit and run.

    The only evidence I have is the (barely discernible) blood spattered collar that is bent and scratched. 

     

     

    Thank you goddess for having friends who gathered her and helped me bury her.

     

    I am trying to remember that others have lost far more.  Even so I am still hurt. 

     

    I knew the risks for where I live and her propensity for exiting the back yard.  I had hoped for many more opportunities to outwit her. 

    My baby girl is gone. 

    I swear off animals (pets).  NO more.  Not unless I become disciplined enough to train them to stay out of the road no matter what.