Cindy,

your hazel eyes.
your tender smile.
your hair with glare.
that makes me declare;
I am the luckiest guy
in front of your life.
I want to reach for the stars
on the brightest night
my feelings are at race,
when I see your face.
Your sweet spirit
talks to my ear, and
my heart tells me
the future is already here.
                 

                               With Love,
                                     R.  4-5-12

Isn't that just the sweetest!
I'm not sure how I got so lucky, but everyday I am thankful. 

So many of us have come to know that change is the only thing that is consistent and I would love to know who is first credited for speaking that thought.  If given enough time one can come to this conclusion on their own.  I believe it to be one of the obvious sentiments of life. 

I have finally let go of the idea of having faith in someone who doesn't have faith in me.  In a manner of speaking.  I have given up hope on the idea of Texas.  Somewhere in this journey I knew that I deserved someone who could express their interest in having a relationship with me.  It has taken some time for me to admit to myself (although it should have been obvious) that I am the kind of person who wants to be in a relationship. 

I hope for a mutually fulfilling situation. 

I have met someone who has had the courage to express his interest.  It has been three days and he has called me everyday.  Thus far I am excited to get to know him and look forward to the possibilities. 

At the moment that is all I am going to speak about or place hope in.  I am having trust that universe knows what is best for this situation and I'm gonna roll with it.   

St. Patties day... wonder why I dreamt of a viking giant. 

I was standing in line to order food.  A man behind me proceeds to approach me and I think to myself, what the hell, why not.  The thing is he had to be 7, 8 or who knows 10 feet tall.  I climbed up on his shoulders while we waited for our turn in the line.  He orders a sandwich and pizza I say make that two sandwiches.  The next thing I know is we are heading to his house.  I can see my car in the distance off to the right and think to myself alright should I need to get out of here I'll head straight for it.  As we approach his place it is actually a boat.  

We are aboard the boat and he makes a sexual innuendo and I feel a moment of panic when I feel resistance because I am still hung up on a certain Texan.  I start pacing and walk to the edge of the boat and think to myself, well if you wanted to actually get off the boat how will you as we are on land and being it's a giants boat that is an awfully long jump. 

I think to myself well I'll just tell him what I am going through.  I am fearful as being a giant he was perfectly capable of hurting Kevin should he be offended by his behavior.  I look at the viking and say.  I'm having a hard time because of how I feel about this guy.... blah blah blah... I wake up.